Saturday, February 12, 2011

Shine by David Crowder Band

Send me a sign

A hint, a whisper

Throw me a line

'Cause I am listening

Come break the quiet

Breathe Your awakening

Bring me to life

'Cause I am fading

Surround me

The rush of angels' wings

Shine Your light so I can see You

Pull me up, I need to be near You

Hold me, I need to feel love

Can You overcome this heart that's overcome?

You sent a sign

A hint, a whisper

Human divine

Heaven is listening

Death laid love quiet

Yet in the night a stirring

All around

The rush of angels

Shine Your light so I can see You

Pull me up, I need to be near You

Hold me, I need to feel love

Can You overcome this heart that's overcome?

O the wonder of

The greatest love has come

Shine Your light so all can see it

Lift it up, 'cause the whole world needs it

Love has come, what joy to hear it

He has overcome

He has overcome
Just be.

Thursday, February 10, 2011


My journey with weight loss came to a stand still in October. Moving was hard. Not having a job outside of the home has been even harder.

And as I reported in January, I was almost as heavy as I was when I gave birth to Owen. How depressing to be that big, and not have a baby as a reward!

Today, I am happy to report that I am -10 pounds from the January 4th weigh in with the doctor. TEN pounds!!

Granted, the holidays are over, and we have started to go to the gym, but TEN POUNDS!! Can you tell how EXCITED I am over that??

If I could do that every month for the next 5 months, I would be ecstatic!! Wouldn't you be??

Last week we didn't go to the gym because I was sick with the flu for 4 days. (believe me... I lost enough in fluids to prevent any gain!)

Thanks for cheering me on... (You know who you are).

Also, thank you for continued prayers for the Koop clan. Tomorrow is surely going to be one of the hardest yet, this week for them. Pray for safe travels for everyone heading to South Dakota, near and far, for Wayne's memorial service.

Hug the ones you love a little longer today.



Wednesday, February 9, 2011


I can't tell you how many times this week I have cried at a drop of a hat.

For Val, losing her husband, best friend, and father of her babies.

For Caeden and Claire, losing their daddy.

For Dave and Donna, losing their son.

For Nikki and John, losing their brother.

And for countless other family and friends..... grieving for this man who created such joy in everyone's life.

Tears stream down my face, and I have a lump in my throat as I write this. I have not felt this heavy hearted in quite some time.

It's not easy.


And dealing with Grief.

Because everyone deals in their own way.

I have to share, as V did on her blog... finding a sticker heart on a quilt given to her by friends. A sign that Wayne was okay. I have many stories of similiar occurances. I hope that "signs" continue for my beautiful friend. She needs that. They all do.

So tonight... I am tearful. Tearful knowing she is going through such sorrow, and there is nothing anyone can do to make it less than what it is.

Please keep V, her chickens, and the rest of the Koop clan, extended family and friends in your prayers as they continue to take step by step, each day, trying to get through this tough time.

V~ you have been strong for so long, it's okay to let it go now. You have every right in the world.

Love from afar~


Monday, February 7, 2011


I went to a warehouse sale today.

I bought an antique sewing machine and it's wooden case/table.

I'm not sure what it's called.... (the thing the machine is in)

It's old. 1890's. Wooden. Ornate.

It's kinda cool to have a piece of history.

White is the brand name.

We'll see how "cool" James thinks it is.

Continue praying for the Koop clan. Please. They are so loved.

If you haven't checked out her beautiful photography and shared happenings of life's events, do so.

It's the link to the left.

Or you can find it here.

Until next time~

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Healing Hearts

When you lose someone who has been in your life since you can almost remember, it is truly heart breaking.

All around you. People offering condolences.

Decisions you don't want to make, but have to.

Not quite sure of the emotions you should feel.

It's surreal.

Feels like a dream.

Unsure of the future.

I know. I lost the three most important men in the first 21 years of my life.

Heart breaking.

A loss is.

The strongest woman I know today, lost her best friend, partner in life, and father of her children, last night.

It's heart breaking.


It's what you have to have.


In the Lord, our Savior.


To allow yourself to grieve.

I have some big news coming... Inspired by my story, and theirs.

Please continue to follow, because it's going to be great!!

Also, please keep my friend, V, her chickens, and the ENTIRE Koop clan in your prayers.

Pray for healing hearts.

V and chickens, we love you!

Rejoice that Wayne is with the Lord!